I haven't written here in ages, and the site feels so foreign now.
so much to do, but I can't seem to bring myself to do any of it. I did everything imaginable to procrastinate, flipping through random people's facebooks, chatting online, filling my time with useless things. I don't know why I procrastinate. I really don't. In the end, I just end up frustrated for having wasted time earlier. Time just always seems to slip by.

college essays. huck finn essay. psych test. math quiz. physics quiz.
none of this would be bad, but i feel like i'm slipping behind in everything. and suddenly, everything is out of my control. the moment i try to catch up, the faster everything seems to go. a whirlwind of never ending work. i'm tired of falling asleep in class. deciding whether to stay up late and finish my homework or deciding to go to sleep so i can understand what happens in class.  at this rate, what happens in college, when classes are so much harder? how am i supposed to something extraordinary if i can't even stay awake or remember anything i learn?

when i was younger, i had so many dreams. i wanted to go to julliard and be a piano teacher. i wanted to perform in carnegie hall. i wanted to be famous. then, i wanted to be a teacher, because i thought living in a classroom would be glamorous. and then being a pastry chef sounded fun. and now, i dont know. everything seems so monotonous. i can't imagine doing something for every single day of my life.

im not sure what's wrong with me. i get so frustrated with little things. the tone of someone's voice,a rude look.
maybe i need some more sleep.

a new year begins.
so many possibilities and dreams.
in the end, only some of these will form into reality,

hmm.. hopes?
finish math & chem sat II's and sat I in one try.
master inclass essays :D
win mtac solo (with variations seriuse?)  :))
and....overcome obstacles in the past

david ko is playing "variations serisues" :[

mom: WAIT. this means he'll play it for MTAC solo!
me: heehee we'll compete with the same piece
*cracks up hysterically*

i think im going insane. somewhat.. just want this fucking quarter to end. i hate all this crammage.

CRYSTAL SPRINGS. in 1.5. weeks :D EXCITED?!

i go to my subscriptions, only to find out nobody wrote about crystal :D
it was shitty. and dusty. and windy. the end.

when christine is tired...
1. she trips.
coming back from manuella, on campus, between the science wings and portables, there are these dumb speed bumps. i was talking to someone, completely oblivious to these HUMPS andd i tripped. it was one of those lovely falls when you kinda slide forward on the ground. yup and now my knee is discharging some white-yellowy goo :/ and i have bruises beneath my skinned knees lol
2. she does other dumb things
when i get home, i turn on the shower and leave to go get some clothes. i come back, only to realize the shower nozzle was turned OUTSIDE of the stall. and the bathroom is half flooded. hahahaha

off to do my quantum mechanics lab!